myfuglystory

2010-01-18T00:11:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to NAMIRAH.
Happy birthday to you.

(: LOVED

2009-07-28T12:50:00.007+08:00

I guess I just need to change and escape,

for the best.

anyhowes, i think this gayman looks old in this photo. ish! i do look fairer now kan? i know right! he makes me feel so glowing and shining (?). and believe me when i say my face is getting rounder. sadded. i wanna gain weight and built fats on my BODY not at the face. now this reminds me of someone whom i used to make fun of. fuck karma. so now i've learnt to shut my gap. or atleast for a moment.

since when does breaking up with someone a week before going back to your ex consider being a slut?

have been crying alot this past few weeks. emo-nemo. somehow, i feel vulnerable although i think im strong? idk. but whatever it is, i hope to end this whole situation soon.
you know i need you by my side kan b? you better know that and you better do that. let the past be the past and we learn from it. you know how i feel kan? you know what i expect from you kan?
i saaaaaaayang ajak, gile baaaabs.

did i meantion i love dynamite? stay strong kay babe. kau selalu ade aku :D

2009-07-21T13:19:00.001+08:00

new day, new say.

yesterday was the best day so far. 20th july.

hell yeah \m/

its a matter of time before someone's heart break again. so sorry. maybe you should be informed, maybe not. think of it, i dont think now is the right time. lets just see when.

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr love.

2009-07-16T13:32:00.006+08:00

"Lately I've been thinking 'bout wat i can do

I've been stressing to fall back in love with you

I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through

But I can't go on this wayI've got to stop it babe

You've been wonderful in all that you can be

But it hurts when you say that you understand me

So believe me, I I am sorry I"

lots of things happened last weekend. i swear it happens so fast that i almost fell on my knees. all i have to say today is that, sometimes you cant expect things to go your way. im sorry if i have made it impossible for you, but i have to be selfish now like i've been asking you to. you know how hard it is to cry and not know what to do coz you know that your decision is final and right and you made the person you love/loved disappointed or sad. my mind has been a mess for the past 4 days. its hard keeping and catching up, but im trying my best. i'll be happy if you could do the same. and like you've said, if im happy so will you. i hope you are (:

if i can move on, so can you.
loves.

aku nk jadi power ranger \m/

2009-07-11T01:02:00.004+08:00

waddup dear readers !
im eager to tell you that im done with my O level Mother Tongue oral which took place on th Thursday, 9th July. i was damn nervous that my temperature shot up the moment i set foot into the hall. the others were trying to make jokes while waiting anxiously. im just thankful that i wasnt the first to go. if im not wrong, i was the 5th. yey, just nice (:
it was such a coincidence that the topic was about remaja(teenagers) and that morning, Mr F made the class do 3 questions about remaja as well. i think he really had us prepared for that afternoon and i was feeling so freaking fantastic. not until i reach the hall ah.

anw, attended for the DPA thingy at ngee ann poly with jannu and love. lets just say my afetrnoon was ruined even before anything could happen. thanks eh b. went home after that, bubbling cliques for meeting them after their movies. hehe, sorry. then fytch picked me up and we went manual car washing with some other little kids. and we headed home after that. herhome i mean. so basically i am now at fytch's.

bby wanted me to blog about him coz he said i havent been doing so for quite awhile.
so here goes.

now that you've experienced the two long days of cold shoulders from me, you should have learnt that im not the kind of person you wanna mess with. you may want to have your little vengence or whatsoever, but like you've said, im the type of girl who just simply dont give a damn. come to think of it, if i really am that way, we wouldnt have made it this far. i was so much worst than i already am. but whatever it is, let bygones be bygones. as long as you think you can work this out, there's nothing that can stop you.
this irritating phatboy is loving me so dearly. sucks to be you :P
i love you too asraff suradi ♥

to those who had their hearts break, suck it up.
"sometimes love comes around. and it knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down."

2009-07-03T22:42:00.003+08:00

hey hey. just cam back from bugis and currently am at Yana's.
thought of sleeping over but yea, dont think i can ah. coz adik are all at home so it willl be unfair to be sleeping here. oh well. anyway, im just blogging for awhile. so yea.

i love ashrawkins crazy fck.

2009-07-03T00:50:00.003+08:00

so there you go, the picture that day taken by fytch and adik.
one of everything i've tried on. im doing a little promoting here, as you can see.

and here's adik. (she's trying to be fierce)
*giggles like mad*

and a few other picture that we took along the way (:

2009-07-02T00:57:00.002+08:00

so here goes.

fytch was asking of what name to give for her net-garage sale.
then i remembered the name Firehorse.
cool huh!
since everyone's blogshop is so randomly named.

fire + horse
= FIRE HORSE !

wooooo! cool or whatttt? i am so freaking awesome \m/

2009-06-30T17:30:00.001+08:00

im obsessed with this new song =.=

and dont go near me. im suspecting myself with H1N1.

stupid (nadiah said)

2009-06-28T21:35:00.004+08:00

Greetings,young ones.
i am here to replace Namirah.And i am your storyteller for today.i am Ash.and u shud all know who i am by now.so hello =)

Namie wants me to tell u guys,how well she sang the song Still Loving You by Scorpions.She went with Yana's family for a karaoke session and dear God,i seriously don't know how she managed to cope with a legendary song.and trust me,i know my girlfriend's singing capabilities =P.

So she's gonna get another whole week of extended holidays,u don't know hw frustrated i am.cuz one of her teachers got down with H1N1.im pissed.why the hell isnt my sch teachers coming down with H1N1?dammit.dammit.dammit.yes she's prolly gonna rot at home.but im gonna drag her out everyday to study.pfft.our o's are nearer than ever.gotta mentally prepare ourselves.

and.

IM STILL LOVING YOUUUUUU!! \m/

pumpkin <3

2009-06-26T17:35:00.005+08:00

off centers.

we were super bored but feeling super goofy. so we entertained ourselves :D

2009-06-26T14:50:00.002+08:00

currently at Weet's. visiting her after her fall. haha, kesian.

anyway, running a fever of 37.2 degress at the moment. just got this damn fever ytd morning. i thought it was just me, not getting use to wake up early in the morning after sooooo long. my body was aching, and i could feel my temperature shooting up. i joked with Nina that maybe im just feeling the contraction of muscles after my gym visit last week. hahaha. stupid excuse siaa.

so after school, met bby and had breakfast at banquet. then he sent me home for the first time after six months. then i changed and me and my parents went johor. i know it was stupid to go johor when im in such state. but its been awhile since i step into johor so who cares. we shopped a lot. like the boot was filled with plastic bags. haha.

when i reached home, took my temperature and thermometer showed 39.1 degress !

so yea, thats about it that i wanna blog about today. heez =3

so there's 3 sick people here. each with different sickness. haha. chaoz.

i love ash rawkins crazyfuckshitishextreme.

2009-06-17T02:18:00.003+08:00

started on a date, to the cinema where we watched nick and norah's infinite play list. we held hands for the first time. even when our hands were aching we were still holding on.

first.
we celebrated one month cum my 17th birthday with a cake at a sushi restaurant. the waitress showed up with a cake, i was very surprised indeed. could have been the best birthday celebration so far, but never will i forget that particular day. chocolate almond.
second.
made a video from my phone for our second month cum valentine's day. unfortunately, phone was confiscated by some faggot at school and my plan backfired. ended up in the library studying and testing each other. i almost forgot bby took geography.
third.
rushed to JP from school to get some materials for my DIY card. a so called present for bby. printed two of our pictures. one to be pasted on the card, the other to be pasted in my wardrobe. as usual, our plans to meet on time always fails. but he's used to waiting. he'll have to.
got back my phone, but a present too late to be given. went to catch a movie, Coming Soon. i swear bby was hiding his eyes. we held each other so tight, i could barely breathe. but thats what makes me feel secure and save, his body warmth and scent.
fourth.
had pizza hut after school with bby. i remembered trying to take a chicken with a knife. but he took his fork, pierce through the chicken and fed me. i have to admit it now that he pampaers me alot. thats why im his little princess, and im loving him loving me.
we had our hair cut. he said he'd cut bangs if i were to cut mine bangs too. that silly boy.
fifth.
we headed down to sentosa for our fifth. we celebrated it a day earlier, but who cares. sentosa was a last minute plan to be truthful. thats when bby dropped his phone while he was browsing thru the photos. he was strong, he put his feelings aside and made the day a fantastic one. we went vivo after that to window shop. we parted at his busstop when i have to get to Fytch's.
sixth.
its today, later for a celebration. kite flying at westcoast. weird you may say, but thats what makes us unique in a way. i love the way the both of us gets random with each other. thats what makes me love ash more by the day.

no matter what we do each month to mark our new achievement in making our relationship a success, im glad im making it with ash. the time that i've spent with him is never a time for frowns and arguments. even if that were to happen, he will always put a smile on my face to go home with. its been six months, half a year to put it in a nicer word, i have tolerated craps and randomness from this guy and i enjoy every single thing that we've shared. im grateful to have gone this far with this one irritating person and i'll say, bring it on to whatever that is yet to arrive.

2009-06-17T00:19:00.009+08:00

heyho.

my eyes looks heavy and so unGlam after washing the make-ups away. i really think that eyeliner makes me look way older then i am. so yea, did some modelling for Fytch for her blog shop or smth. i hope i did make the clothes look good ah coz i thought i did. haha. i did my own make-up, Adik and Fytch was the photographer, Adik pulled out all the clothes and i put it together. good team work. and Fytch's white wall was our background. sadly, Fytch is sleeping and she's uploading the photos only tmr, so yea, no photos of just now for show. *sobs* my beautiful face! haha.
and i just did Adik a big favour by re-editting her blog to a new format. yey me! and i install tagboard for her too. wow kepe. lol. idk why people look for me to redo their background, but i am no technical genius (boasting siket). but i am good at scrapping of credits :D

people, check the date! today at this hour, its already 17th June. hell yea! \m/
HAPPY HALF ANNI BBY !
i alr miss you so fucking much that no words could describe this desprate need of you in my arms. argh! i want to hug my fatboy now :B hehe
i love my bananasplitwithcookies&creamandmangoicecreamwithwhippedcreamsandchocolatefudgearound
andrainbowsprinkleswithcherryontop !
cant wait to celebrate it later. okay, must go find candles alr. bye people =3

2009-06-16T01:05:00.004+08:00

one more day.

went gym yesterday morning. and i saw taufik batisah with his hot bod! =3 but im not gaga over that person ah. pft. he seriously have nice big muscles. solid!
i did running for 15 minutes on the damn machine while bby carried some weight. when i was done, i approached him and said "I nak u hilangkan tummy, bukan buat muscle" and gave him the wtf face. hahaha. and i bumped into Issy who was there since idk when. didnt saw her anywhere ah. she was about to leave when she ask me to go buat pantat. lol. that bitch.
we left gym at about 3 and shared a cup noodle by the stadium. kesian sia. refilled bby's bottle from the track's water cooler which tasted like air jamban. i dont think they filter the water there properly ah, seriously taste like fuck sak.

oh, when i got home that morning, mom and dad was sleeping in separate room. good news for me ah, meaning another one of their disagreements. heh, adults. so i got to know from my granny that dad was a premature baby. okay, redundant. hahaha.
waited for fytch to finish her work was fucking long ah. idk how long i waited but bby said its bad to ditch people. ryte. never heard of it. hehe.

ONE MORE DAY TO HALF !

that should be about it. okay bye, nak tido.
gooooooodnight peopleeeeee :B
i love ashrawkins in the toilet. hahaha.
Asraff, ku cinta sama lu.

2009-06-15T02:09:00.003+08:00

\m/

just finished editing my tagboard and background. was super tiring ah, had to keep changing everytime. but with bby's help i managed to settle down with what you see here (: hooray!
sunday was so mundane, like usual. although i can spend quality time doing maths, i rather watch tv and just bear with the everlasting sunday headaches. but when i decided to give maths a chance, i just cant seem to think of any solutions to solve the thousand questions. its either me or the paper, idk. but Memoirs of a Geisha kept me entertained so i basically survived the evening. oh yeah =3 and i think i consumed too much of sweet stuff today causing my throat to feel very dry. cant eat ice cream later morning. *sobs*

today monday, later morning, gonna meet up with bby and go gym! hell yea. im gonna make sure he'll run an estimated of 5km and lift some weight. he's gonna regret going gym with me. hohoho :B i want to make bby make me drool and run after him. haha. in my dreams. but im SURE, he's gonna be a changed man inside out with the help of SuperNamie :D

this should be all for now. and with that, thank you.
i love ASHROC fuckingverymuch <3

2009-06-14T02:44:00.001+08:00

yey, more links now
and look! there's even the tagboard
O.O

2009-06-14T02:06:00.001+08:00

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so this evening was suppose to be a study day for me and ash. i made my little sister tag along so she can finally meet ash. thank god they get together just fine :D
we bought 6 pieces of sushi while we were on the way to Jurong West library. ash insisted that we go get some today. oh well, he paid. then we headed to the library and it was freaking packed ah. since when people are so interested in books? heh. so we sat and eat, adik and ash did some drawings while i stressed over my maths holiday assignment. so as per normal, we ended up packing our bags and headed back to JP to buy some of these nice food they sell at Chewy Jr. its damn nice i swear. nina has a great influence on me for this. haha. so after buying 6 pieces of almost everything of chocolate, we went to the park near BoonLay.
adik was busy talking about banglas. she and i has some issues about these people classified as banglas, idk why but we just do. she hates it when banglas stare at her and smile. i mean, she herself stare at some strangers and smiles at them. ironic sakk. so yea. i felt like im one of those young couples ah. i felt old. haha.
basically the evening was a blast. nothing can describe the feeling of happiness then. aisey. adik was impressed with ash, yey. she said,"asraff dari tadi asik kluarkan duit. kesian die." hahaha. she'll get the hang on it soon. fyi, she didnt believe me at first when i told her bby was well-fed. then she was quite shocked when i walked towards that roundboy. haha. bby finds adik sweet. oh well, tengok ah kakak die :B
so we headed home a few minutes afetr 7pm. i can see that adik adores ash. she waved goodbye to him like mad. haha. then now adik is planning to watch Monsters VS Aliens la, go swimming la, this la that la. haiyo. bby suggested that i bring adik along to celebrate our half. im not sure, but sounds like a good idea to me. so there's a plan for monday and wednesday, cept we dont know what to do for what day. lol asraff.

looking forward for next wed, 17 june :D

im glad bby makes effort to be a better person.
i love asraff maximus.

2009-06-13T01:41:00.001+08:00

and dont ask me where my tagboard went. im already so upset.
plus im sorry about the links. i almost deleted my blog for screwing things up.

2009-06-13T01:20:00.003+08:00

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sometimes i wonder what people think of me. whats their first impressions on me were. other times, i would just let myself be me and ignore what others think. but today i realise, people think im weak and helpless coz whenever i share my problems with them, they came to a sense whereby they have to lighten that burden im carrying.
truth is, im stronger than you think. i've been living the past years forcing myself up on my feet to take everything, suck in everything. one thing i learnt in life is to never let anyone gets in your way and ruin your own life. it doesnt pay to be obedient and helpfull coz the people out there are never gonna be nice to you. not even the ones you think you can trust or love.
i wonder why i cant keep things to myself. coz whenever i voice it out loud, i found myself on the loosing end. it sucks to be me right now. i can swear you that.

2009-06-12T22:47:00.004+08:00

FAMILY DAY 2009

kay actually family day was last weekend, but who cares. im blogging wat.
that picture of a very old lady is my great grandma. yea, still stong and alive. she's the cause of our every celebration. and she never mixed up any of our names like other grandmas do. hell yea, she rock \m/

the day before, we had barbeque. i started the fire! woo, i rock. im a potential scoutboy. any takers? haha. then overnight there and didnt have much fun. hoho. bby left me at ecp while he went johor with his family. lawl.

the day itself, we were divided into four groups. so theres Chelsea, Liverpool, Man U and Tampines rovers. hah! tampines rovers? hahhaha. im chelsea-ed. had lots of fun. we played rounders and captain's ball. we started the occasion with our normal poncho-poncho dance with some music that totally doesnt suit. family day was again, a blast. and i got tanned :B

2009-06-04T15:55:00.003+08:00

*yawns* i got big dark eyebag and am currently at SP library.

it was my idea that i follow fytch to her school and she was serious about it. so here i am, stuck in the library, waiting for her to end her 2 hours lecture. i guess im gonna spend my time guitar-geeking or blog hopping. haiz. i feel like a poly student around these guys. and idk what else to blog. so till then, bye people.

2009-06-04T03:18:00.005+08:00

i look like as if i need a good tight slap. i know.
and urgh! dark circles.

had seminar just now morning, or in this case ytd afternoon, about some english stuff that is suppose to guide us how to do well for our O levels. i end up talking throughout the first half anyway. heh. so when i reached right, i was glad i somehow wasn't uniformed like the other girls. they define wardrobe malfunction. at least if you dont have anything nice to wear, wear something nicer then that. sheesh. and the lecturer is damn sarcastic i tell you. and quite demanding i must say. she like expect us to pay attention to her long and draggy presentation. i can die! had lunch at LPS after that and went cityhall to slack. its holiday man.

yaadaa-yaadaa. i just finish with completing half of what i've planned to complete for my cw today. thats an achievement i suppose? yey me.
and had a little game of guitar geek. bby was right, that game IS addictive. just like gossip girl. oh i miss watching their drama.

i guess till next time. i have a beauty sleep to catch up. adieu.
i get confuse and lost when im too near.

i love ash catchem.haha. ASH RAWKINS bby.

2009-05-27T16:52:00.012+08:00

im running out of pictures. oh well.

anw, a whole week of intensive mother tongue. can say im enjoying the intenseness coz the pressure the teachers are putting on us are not as bad as i thought it would be. can you believe it, FIVE FREAKING MORE DAYS to O' level Mother Tongue. oh yeaaahh!

guess what, i almost fainted this morning, on the way to school. i felt more like a weakling when i had to grab a seat to ~~rest my tortured soul~~. yea ryte. i sound like as if im dying ah. anw, i was going down the escalator when i shut my eyes for awhile. then when i opened back my eyes, i was seeing stars. i really felt like fainting siaaaa. so i walked over to Lot One area there to sit and decided to give my form teacher a call. she never pick up ah. waste my time. the point is, i still went to school eventhough i almost died on my way there. hhhaaaahhhh!

learning peribahasa is a torture. i hate you peribahasa. and mr faizal.

seperti ikan membenci jala.

yey, i created that. just did. im an einstein :B

and not to forget. i talked to ash's principal just now. hahaha. fuck him ah. i called ash using the school phone's for a lot of times until i decided to use my own freaking number. and yea, his principal picked up. like who is he to pick up my call?!

"who's this?"

"no, who are you?"

"who are you looking for?"

"asraff?"

"im asraff's principal."

*laughters at the back*

"yea ryte, whatever."

"yea rite? why dont you call him back later?"

waddafuck. i know. such a principal ah, nabey. i was totally confused. i didnt know whether to laugh my ass out or pray that ash wont get scolded. i chose to laugh.

bby just came up with a fantastic poem for nadiah in ard 5 minutes. you rock outerspace.

thats my boyfriend yaw. i love him infinity&beyond

2009-05-23T02:27:00.004+08:00

i enjoyed today's bbq with fytch's friends at pasir ris alot. who would have thought i could get along with them. heh. but i felt guilty too, for not being able to celebrate zuhrah's birthday party coz im suppose to be there but i wasnt. im sungguh sorry. thousand maaf.
anw, had some silly ganes with the people around the table. and by the end of the whole game, my mouth was stuffed with 4 marshmallows. i swear that will be the last few marshmallows im gonna swallow for the next few months. i almost threw up, seriously. they agreed that i look like fytch. oh well, we're twins. im the older one (:
who would have thought that the world is really shrinking.

had mother tongue intensive in sch just now. was fucking irritated towards dismissal. i mean, someone indirectly calls me racist. he was lucky i didnt show him my side of racism, that fathead. it was stupid for that particular person to get angry bocause i asked the bunch to get out of the class as the malay students were finishing thier test. unlike them, we are very well disciplined i must say. heh. fuch C. okay, i admit im racist. maybe only for the time being. until he apologise that is.

fytch says ash is possesive. true.
i love ash rawkins kuhrayzee fak.

2009-05-22T01:53:00.008+08:00

some pictures of last sunday's. okay i know im so not up-to-date. but since you're here, just suck watever i've published je la hor. hehe. sorry yaw (:

so as you can see, i spent my last sunday with these two bitches instead of studying for fnn and physics. cant blame them though, coz i cant be bothered with those two subjects anw. we were sent to marina barage and sent back home. haha. and instead of us getting entertained, we entertained the patrons there with our mini performance. im wild with these kuhrayzee bitches.
oh and thats liyana in cap and weeeet in black and white. i love them.

and i love ash rawkins infinity.

2009-05-17T14:48:00.005+08:00

hi, im back for a while. anw,
went Sentosa yesterday with love, had a blast. had to stop taking photos after he dropped his phone. such a spoil spot, i know. but nothing can spoil our day of celebrating our 5 monthsary. or should i say one year and five months.
i mean, we went through alot more than what i ever expected. and the times i had with love was as if we've been together for ever. these five months feels like five years. oh well.
so, he dropped his phone infront of the merlion. that butter finger. then we headed to the pahlawan beach where we (actually me) spotted a very nice place for us to have the time alone. sat by the beach on the rocks, and started talking about coast. haha. i finally got to know that bby took geography too. i am such an awesome girlfriend (: and yea, we yakked and yakked for until idk what time. then we headed to vivo.
we walked, talked and windowshopped. oh and i went back to SR just because i wanted to meet Ifa. i miss her too much. haha. then took bus 30 to bby's crib. his mum's rendang was nice. but nothing can compare nenek's. huhu.
okay, thats basically everything about yesterday.

today, the 17th. i wanna say HAPPY FIVE MONTHS BBY!
skarang u know i will cry when i binget. so learn. haha
i love this fat-fit boy very much
♥ ♥ ♥

2009-05-14T22:26:00.002+08:00

haiz.
its been so long since that girl blogged.almost a month.lol.and in a month alot happens.and she always wants to blog but cant.hahaha.she's the sweetest.

So again here you have Ash blogging for Namie.and she has been pestering me to blog for her for weeeeeksss.so i guess i'll just get down to it now to shut her up.lol.

Im not sure when she'll get down to blogging but i'll be sure to pester her to blog dear readers.Oh yeah this Sunday will be our one year fifth month i guess.hahaha.

She Has Magical Properties.that has enraptured me.

i love her.

p'z

2009-04-19T15:17:00.010+08:00

since the last four months, we always compete to see who is sincere in expressing our love. it doesnt matter who wins though, coz we both know how we felt towards each other after all. the support and love i got from him is nothing compared to any other guys ive been with. he fill my days and nights with his presence and laughters, refraining fear and sadness. he became my pillar of strength just like how i became his. even though we only meet each other twice/thrice a week, i could still remember his scent, his touch. like they said, absence makes the heart grow fonder. proven.

now four months have passed, ive grown use to being pampered by this lovely man and i wish that it will stay this way forever if possible. maybe until there's little irritating rawkins running around; with facial features like yours and eyes and lips like mine

tersangkut, terpaut, terjatuh cinta.

peanut ♥ bean

2009-04-10T21:35:00.003+08:00

boring good friday.

yea, im home the whole day. ripley's believe or not sia!
suppose to go out with certain somebody, but turns out he/she have no clue. simply forgot i suppose. yea. i can say that the person has changed, alot. since idk when. but i must say i didnt expact that reaction. oh well, what to do.

anw, got enmazing race tomorrow. from 7am to 7pm. how wonderful.
i want go carik pasal with someone first, chao.

and about the links, i'll update laterlater kay babes.
and i miss you too azura. sally, kau freaking lame. chao seriously.

meloveassrawkins. hehe. i mean ash rawkins.

2009-04-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

Ash/Slack here.namie again is MIA and is slping ryte now.she's very tired nwadays i guess.i love her very much.urgh.there's nth much to blog abt cuz its been 2 days since i last met her.so sad..hur..

Probably meeting bby on monday for lunch.idk wad else to blog.juz that i love her very much and miss her fckin crazaye.hahaha.she ah..is an amazing photographer.and an amazing gf.

P'z

namierawkinsiloveucrazyfuck.

2009-03-29T15:29:00.003+08:00

faggots

good news, im working today. total waddafuck. whoever gave me the schedule is seriously a fathead. im suppose to work 3-10 today, and the time now is hmm, 3.35. ultra greatness. o well, this will be the last time im taking their craps. im quitting by April. so bye secret recipe vivo. you may suck those customers without me (: im free from hell.
its a good idea to log out now and quickly go back and head for work, but i rather punch in at 6 and let them kill their soles. im gonna do some curling to my hair right now and enjoy the hot raining weather. ironically, im sweating and its raining outside. gosh, tanda besar? dont think so.

oh yea, before i forget to blog about this again, i wanna say SAVE THE EARTH and HELP THE POOR. its freaking dumb to say there isnt enough food to give, while as you can see in the shops are crammed with a year supply of food that are waiting to be thrown away afer their expiry date. those food can be given away to the people and stop poverty ah. pft! i dont understand humans. they talk with their eyes shut.

i am still here, not going anywhere. im not even sure if it pays to go to work. lets just wait till i have the mood to get my ass out. till then, im not gonna give a fuck. so yea.
bye people. help the earth for fuck sake. tsk.

me love asraff baybeh.

2009-03-29T00:19:00.004+08:00

hello! back to blog myself (:
had a stress week and everything is sungguh mundane ah. but went out with Dynamite and The Mats on saturday and had fun coz basically, i havent met them for ages. i miss them fuckingcrazygilebabi alot. haha.
today on the other hand, had detention or in nicer words, make up lessons for the days i missed during the march holiday. so much for calling it a holiday when we are still forced to come back for lessons. hehh, cb. afterwards, met bby and went home to change. after much thought, i decided to follow him to watch the dance competition at west coast plaza. im jealous of watching people dancing now that i dont have the chance to. how unfair.
then we headed to west coast park and chill. camwhored most of the time. that must be one of our favourite things to do together. i must say my boyfriend is rather vain. oh well, i still adore him :D
most of the pictures taken have already been uploaded in my facebook. so feel free to have a look, if you care too much.

i wanna apologise for watever hurtful words i've said. im sorry and i thank you for trying. this guy in the picture, is the guy i love most. well, among all the other guys i know that is. this goes without saying, me love ash lots. *kiss

2009-03-20T22:49:00.002+08:00

Haiz.that girl ah.im too lazy to blog on my own blog and she is asking me to blog for her.tsk.nvm laaa.alryte most of u shud noe who i am. Ash/Slack here.

And no i dint close my eye.only abit oni.i was the one who asked her to close her eyes -_- dah la penakut.nak step mane nye berani.lol.

Tomorrow we're going to Vivo then maybe Sentosa for a day out and also for danceworks.i love that girl very much.

And i think ive run out of ideas on wad to write so i'll end here.asalkan dah blog -_-.lol

P'z

namierawkinsiloveucrazyfuck.

2009-03-17T22:43:00.003+08:00

wanna watch me die?

yea! watched coming soon with bby today. horror or what? haha. and im not the only one covering my eyes lor, budak kat seblah tu pun. hahahaha! penakut. nanti chapa carik youuuu. aiyo tak tau. muahaha.
oh, today is one year three months. yey :D

had school just now, super semangat for school nowadays. after that had breakfast with Hazmo, Jenab and Nintendo. haha, anyhow give them names. but cute kannn, i know. hehe.have been saying weird names the whole day sia. wtf.
anw, had kids meal at burger king and i got a toy! woo. a small tin of the shape of a yellow robot. i lyke. Hazmo got himself the gorilla one. sajak la tu. i plan to get the gorilla one for bby. hehe. after breakfast, went to popular to buy some materials for a D.I.Y card. rushed back home after, while the rest went to Nintendo's so called boyfriend's house. and guess what, they were only on their way home when i was otw to library with bby. and Jenab bought something for her future mother-in-law. lawl.
the card i made for bby looks more like a ransom letter. haha, serious sia. although it was quite messy, i made it with lots of love! yey, i love ash.

okay, the story of my life on 17th march.well, partially.
toodles.

meloveashroclotslots.

2009-03-14T00:10:00.002+08:00

belated

yea, wanna wish Aimando a HAPPY BELATED 18th BIRTHDAY :D though i already wished him yesterday, just wanna blog about it today. hehh.
anyway, just finished another few episodes of Gossip Girl. bby must be damn sorry that his girlfriend is addicted to GG. hah. cant blame me, its ed westwick's fault. cant get enough of him. fytch would agree (: now that im done with it, im back to blogging for the week.

school has been absolutely mundane like always. just cant get my eyes open in the morning no matter how i pry it open. alarm was always a pain in the ass. and because of that, im unable to go school via CCK. some people will know why this is becoming an issue to me.

havent even started with FNN's research. im slacking! i did fucking badly for CA1. if you were to see my results, you wouldnt believe it either. i mean for a person who is taking her O levels this year, getting C5 for her Malay is terribly unspeakable. and out of the only 6 subjects, i managed to pass just pathetically 2. how fucked is that? tell me about it. gosh. however, i passed FNN. a freaking B3! booyaaaaaaaaah.

and thus, i made an effort to make sure that next week, im gonna stay awake no matter what lesson it is and how boring to the verge of death it may get, im striving for the best. go namirah! ryte.
that's suppose to be a hint that we have no freaking one week march holiday next week. how unfair. those lazybums like my brother, will just sit at home and get their asses fat while i struggle to keep myself awake during lessons. the only holiday i get next week is friday and the weekends. so much for "you need enough rest to function best." fuck it.

not forgetting my phone. im suppose to get it back next friday and look what im into. i've been dreaming about the day i get a hol of my phone back, but there will not be anyone in school. great!

everything is against me now. good. im adapting/acclimatizing, which ever suits best. first was my malay teacher having some grudge towards me coz i have nicer set of nose than him, and therefor he gave me a C5 for mother tongue. second, the school is against me. not opening the fucking damn place on friday. fuckshit!
grr, im so mad right now. gonna turn to my LadySheezy for emotional comfort. hehh, bye.

meloveashroccrazyfck<3

2009-03-08T01:57:00.004+08:00

heyho lets go

sleep. yes, lets go sleep! someone's gonna be mad if im not gonna turn in any sooner. like its saturday night ffs. everyone is suppose to be up till sunday or something like that right.
i miss my old life. i must say, its was much more vivacious then. the acme of my life. but now its so so mundane, that nothing can defined fun the way it was before. well atleast i have bby, he will always make my day. that is if he's not on my nerves before i get on his. hehe.
im working today. like today as in sunday. im a lazy cow nowadays. it cant be helped. i mean, i have to study for upcoming O and stuff and i have alot to keep me occupied. it sucks.
i wanna sleep and be awaken by a new happy day.
nites people, sweetdreams (:

i miss ashrawkins already. i love you boo.

2009-03-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

acme of last week's

hello. okay last post is so archaic, sungguh two weeks ago. now im back with new updates (:
today is the extreme boring saturday ever lived. am at home the whole freaking day watching tv, entertaining myself with bollywood movie and i swear i was on the verge of dying. i guess i hafta acclimatize to this coz im gonna spend most of my time at home, now that i have to shift my focus to books and tons of them. major year suckdick.

did some fnn revision or what i thought i was doing. atleast i managed to do mindmap for carbohydrates and part of fats. then just now, i tried searching for words in the dictionary. i know im hardworking. yey me! hehh. the point is, i made an effort to study and thats what matters. unlike some wastrel. im not wank (:

im speechless now. end of my baloney.
i miss bby, so fuckingdamnveryextreme much. okay, gotta go blog for him now. that lazy pig. chao ma people. muackz! hehh, wtf.

iloveashrawkinscrazyfck<3

2009-02-22T20:25:00.002+08:00

confession to addiction

hello. its yours truly blogging again, namie (:
anw, was at fytch's for the weekend and didnt go out with my bunch of friends. although they last minute asked me to tag along. that is when i asked fidut if they were going out. i guess i wont be going out anyway if i didnt ask him right. so to make the situation the way it is, i decided to accompany fytch at home instead. yes. atleast im being a good companion [: oh well, lets not drag this.

i am officially addicted to gossip girl. i know some of you may think its a bore, but ts actually a great show. yea. and i must agree with fytch that ed westwick is super cute. although he's a perv, he is one charming hot playboy. hehh.

school's tmr and i dont think i have homework. not that i remeber of having any. in any case, im logging off soon to do school's business.

oh, cabin launch is ard the corner. its this saturday, 28th February at 10 am.
i wonder why janny keeps forgetting the date. that old fella. asked bby to attend but im gonna warn him first that the launch is gonna suck and a waste of time. whoever's attending, IT SUCK. its is gonna be, i swear.

so till then, bye. xoxo

i fuckingloveashrawkinstotheextrememax.

2009-02-21T01:55:00.002+08:00

family. without our grandmamas
and great grandma.

for bby's reference

2009-02-21T00:41:00.004+08:00

Hey =D

Im Ash/Slack/Asraff u shud noe by now who i am.if u still dont click on my name on Namie's links.

So today i fetched bby frm school.She was early today thank god.Met up with her and then went to Gek Poh KFC for her lunch.After her lunch we sat for a long time thinking where to go.And finally decided to go Chinese Garden.and im basically posting about today twice..Once in my blog.One more in bby's blog.lol.

And now bby is at Fytch's.And that lazy irritating girl does not want to blog and ask me to blog for her instead.Since she has been helping me blog when i was lazy im helping her now.Im prolly gonna call her when i finish blogging,eventhough she's online.I tell u..chatting with that girl is like chatting with the computer..She replies few minutes later -_-

Awaiting for next week.Think she knows why and also the 'thing' that im goin to give her.Hope u like it sweetheart.=D

NamieRawkins.iloveucrazyfuck.

2009-02-16T20:04:00.006+08:00

fiery orange sun.

hello, am at nadiah's. its been awhile. aah-ahh-ahh-ahh (britney's song). like lol. okay im being a pain in the ass by whining since just now. nadiah must be irritated. yey, i made it! :D

anw, chatting with bby. how irritating can that regina girl be? idk, idc. all i know im so much more rritating than her. i swear. hurhur.

met my phatboy just now. super lecey ah that boy. gua siku lu, mati ah boy. hahh. im so random. besok 2 months, yey, besok 2 months. only. was suppose to give bby a video for valentines cum 2niversarry ah. but since that faggot confiscated my phone, tanam suda. waited for him outside his school, like buang mase aku jerr. he forced me go stupid JY, but duh i wont. so after that went 7-11, bought big gulp (hehh) and nachos. sat somewhere to eat then we went to chill. god phatboy, i will kill u!

besok 2 months ah nadiah, mentang2 kau nye nak kat 2 years. hur!

and phatboy started praying! can you believe it? im outta my freaking mind. as long as its for the better, i will still love bby. even more i guess. idk if he's changing for me or watever, but nice job b. so freaking proud of you. *kiss

kay, nak rest. bye.

iloveashrawkinscrazyfuck

2009-02-13T16:19:00.003+08:00

cibai chong.

reasons for the title above? my fone got confiscated.
by who? Ms cibai Chong.
how i know her full name? its obvious her pranagi like cibai.
so yes, she called mummy. i forced her to. simply show fucking attitude and demand that she call my mum. she MUST call my mum. i must tell you, she is one stubborn asshole ever lived. she talked to mummy for like half an hour, mummy demanding her to give back my fone. she just simply cant bear to lose. so she keeps on emphasising on the school rules. FUCK SCHOOL RULES. i dont give a shit and so does my mum. when everytime she wanted to talk, mum will interrupt and she will shut up. since that irritates me, i forced her to let me talk to mum. like i said, she's stubborn. i must tell you again that the more she talks to mummy, the wider her eyes grew. and when she felt like giving up, she hand the phone over to Mr G.
so Mr G took over and shooed me out of the general office. after some time, Ms C called me to go in and talk to Mr G. sweet Mr G says the phone will be given back only after 6 fucking weeks. like sungguh wtf! by then, i'll be an unmarried old hag like her sia ): im so looking forward for 20 march.
i'll make your life a living hell Ms C, i swear.

and now, i cant contact bby. thanks ah eh. so i hope bby is reading this.
bby, i loveyoucrazyfuck <3

2009-02-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

surprise murprise!

wow, tag board is finally alive! haha. speaking of alive, its been awhile since SR is really alive with all those gerek idiots. we use to crack up and stuff, but now that's left are only those few people and them fatheads. not sure if the management there will ever be the same, all i hope for is to work and make money.
anw, in touch was entertaining just now with epy syazwan and khari. they were super cute and such jokers. school was an extreme long day. Mrs B, proven to be an ass, called our CIP project nonsense. it would be nonsense if my ass gets on her face. and sports day is in less than 24 hours. die die die die die die die. must really run like ytd. GO NAMIE!, YOU CAN DO IT! (: self motivation sometimes works.
okay, need to rest alr. bye people.

ilovemyashrawkinslikefuck.

2009-02-10T14:33:00.003+08:00

full moon

went running yesterday, since sports day is tomorrow. how scary is sports day tomorrow can be, very.. anw, did you see that gorgeous full moon yesterday? super nice ah. like egg yolk goreng garing garing letak atas piring.
oh, and i sprinted 200m for 37 sec. flash ah aku. dont play play tauuu.
i hungry already, so nak go makan.
bye

iloveashrawkinsextreme.

2009-02-07T04:44:00.004+08:00

complaints.

yes, im still up even when its already 4.45 in the morning. bby will be shocked to death if he knows that im not yet asleep.
anw, gave my blog a new look. i was thinking of a new link too, coz it seems like most of the people reading my blog are either unexpected or uninvited readers. but since i have to rush to sleep, i only managed to change the skin, tag board and song. it took me less then an hour half to complete everything. yeay me! i think this skin is so much more calming to the eyes? hehh, guess so.
am at fytch to do FNN supposedly, but ended up with chatting, blogging and fb-ing. see la b, sape suroh u tido dulu. hehehehe. so yes people, this kuno person have started with facebook. like finallyyyyyyyy. sheesh, betul punye kuno.

im suppose to meet Dahlia later, in the afternoon. but she has yet to confirm everything with me. that girl ah. i hope she like it in MI (: and to bby's friend, Fate, im sadded for u ah. even slack.

i wanna complain. MY WATCH ROSAK! ):
and not forgetting about how my finger is still not straight and i wished abang know, so he will feel guilty and take me to the doctor. but seems like he doesn't even care, that was what causes the bruises in the first place kann. haiz, sucks to be me.
and i really really have to be doing FNN coz we have proceeded to doing research already wile my priorities have yet to be submitted and editted. although i dont expect to pass my FNN, i still will have to put pride in my work. hearing this for the first time? then freak out!
tsk. seriouslyyyyyyyyy, i need someone to get me focused and on track.
*praypraypray*

iloveashrawkinsextremeandbeyond.

2009-02-06T23:48:00.005+08:00

hello.

am here to update on the past (: lol. anw, had outing with the SR people. since azura has already resign, she decided to blanja us at PS pizza hut. i was late thanks to janny. im an on-time person okayyy. hehh. so anw there was azura, yadi, bing, lulu, richard, luqman, ifa, sally, ivan, zanna, janny and me. had fun. sewiousssss. irritating.

and went sheesha after that. sorry bby i didnt tell you. nnt you marah, susah looooor. ): now you're suppose to be awake to teman me, but you tido. best ah. hur. buang mase je miss call u tapi tak bangun jgak. tido ketat hor, nites (:

iloveashrawkinsextreme.

2009-01-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

family day out <3

yes, just got home from family outing, with daddy's side ofcourse. am now at fytch's.
talking about fytch, riding in her car with her as the driver was craaazzzeeeeyyy. the car was like fucking kecoh and my aunty was so kanchiong ah. haha.
anw, started with bowling at westcoast bowl place. we took up 12 lanes and it was damn fun i tell you. so basically my team includes dad, mum and my big brother. i was surprised that daddy can bowl and we actually make a very good team. and ofcourse, it bonds the gap between me and bro. heck. after the game, we headed to clementi, my aunt's house. chill and stuff and we head for anderson wave after dawn. after walking and camwhoring for some time, we headed to labrador park and that was the last stop.
oh and im so glad i made it back home with fytch ((:

anw, bby's back from melaka. yey!
and he's on the screen. *smiles*
i love ashrawkins to the extreme max!!

2009-01-20T22:18:00.005+08:00

bby, thanks for the cake and everything.
i will kill you if you ever do anything like that again.
if you wanna know what happen on monday, go check bby's blog.
oh and dont forget to read his rhyme.
i swear i love this guy.
tsk.
and dont be jealous after reading okay (:
I LOVE ASRAFF SURADI
to the extreme max and beyond.

2009-01-11T15:19:00.005+08:00

suckers

i cant help it if my way of speech is full of sarcasm and truth that it invites hatred from those over-sensitive pussies. call me a bitch or rude, but thats what i have always been. those pussies have to realise that in this hectic world, people and their words are gonna smack you right in your damn fucking face. the only person you can trust is just your pathetic useless self. and if you cant stand me, you havent meet the rest of the world yet.

to that alien at work who preys on younger boys and brainwashing them newbies into species like you, try harder. proven, im a better bitch.

to the people yesterday, specifically: azura yadi luqman ifa sally iqah ivan and janny, you guys are tough, not like those over-sensitive assholes who cant take sarcasm. yey for you guys (: heh.

that should be all. and this was suppose to be ytd post*

iloveashrawkinsinfinity&beyond

2009-01-10T01:17:00.008+08:00

betrayal

idk how she can still watch tv when her precious was being bruised to death. how can see pretend to be blind and deaf to my cries for help. guess i wasnt that precious, or i tried to be. for all i know, i have always been good and was always there for her when she cried her ass off. maybe thats what im for, thats what she took me for. just someone related to her whom she can turn to when she's in need and it wont be the other way round. she was, once. but like it said, people change. i know what's the cause of her change, its always the same problem. although it doesnt lies in me, she just hate the fact that its not in me. im sorry if im wrong.
and its been awhile since he laid his fingers on me. idk if im in the wrong coz its obvious that im not. people may think he's a good man who discipline others, but i dont think so. he's just a maniac who throws tantrum and venge them on the weaklings. im not weak though, im just helpless. and that was why he chose me to be his fresh victim to satisfy his need of crushing bones. but its okay people, im still alive. and stronger.
bby keeps asking about wats bothering me. i think if i have to tell him, might as well put it in public. bby dont understand why i cant tell him. neither do i. maybe, just maybe, i seek comfort from someone else. and i dont really share my deep unspoken troubles with new people. people that doesnt know my background and the shameful truth. shameful that only certain people are honoured to know. bby keeps asking if im alright, he cares so much. bby is another problem but not as disturbing as the others. i love bby. he defines love. and bby feels hurt coz i am, remember that im hercules bby, i can handle this shit.
i wanna follow her heart-stabbing orders, i wanna get the hell out from hell. i wanna find someone who could bring me up better. but as much as i want to, i just cant. i cant leave her and not be there when she needs me again. i cant leave her coz i know i will miss cursing behind her back. and i will not be like the others who are useless and only worry her. even if she says that im useless. i know she dont mean it, she forced herself to believe it. i think ive let her down, im a disappointment.
now, just how problematic can life get? its a mystery, cant be figured out.
heck i sound crazy and pathetic. im in a sadded state that if u were to ask me questions, i will kill you. i swear. so dont try, im already dead beaten.

and if you care, its 8 more days. that cheers me up.
hence, the story of my 17th life. and that readers, was the prologue.
special thanks to janny and fytch for cheering me up. i know i sounded horrible just now but yea,i love you guys.

not to forget bby. i love u too, ultraman. i miss my ashrawkins like fuck.

2009-01-01T16:43:00.006+08:00

new year.

guess its time for me to change and let go of all the past. to give people a chance to be different and just aprreciate people for who they are. pft, wth am i saying.
and so for this year, i will try to change for the better (:
x giving bby a chance to prove himself and to trust him is gonna be the first on the list
x giving up a bad habit for a good health

x study hard and make others proud

and many many more.

here's a few snaps of this morning's new year celebration. nah bby, see wat you've missed.

and i love ashrawkins like fuck.

2008-12-29T04:09:00.008+08:00

back (:

as stated, im back blogging. after soooooofrrrrrreeeeaaakkking long.
but there's nothing much to say.

new year is around the corner and school's starting soon. gonna be another dreadful year coz gonna be taking O. yey, like finally. heh. and looking forward for school everyday coz thats one of the ways to meet rawkinsbby.
&ashrawkins,isayangyougilapig,iswear.

fuckshit.

2008-12-07T10:15:00.006+08:00

and peabrain, read the previous post first..

slept at 6 the previous day, woke up at 1. thanks for disturbing my beauty sleep and drag me out.
before eastcoast, went to the B&J chunk fest. supposedly to go with dahlia, im sorry, but went there with zuhrah andrew matt and mann instead. yea. unfortunately, it started to rain when we got there. fuckshit. now my white shoe is covered with mud and obviously not white. thanks ah.
oh, had one stick. sorry mr rockin, hard to say no.
to that two idiot who just knew abt my deep secret, you better shut your gap or you're gonna get it from hercules. ever watched Kakiku Di Mulutmu? that might happen to you. aha, got it from matt. apology to zuhrah for making her bring her lappy along but didnt even touch it. thousand maaf yaw. hehe :D
havent been sleeping the whole night last night and the whole of today. am online to edit some stuff, as promised, and to update this dusty blog. i want change the song! help needed.
dammit! im working at 6. fuckkkkkk

ps: weeet, we better be going out on the 11th. i request for off for you. i know im such a darling, dont hafta say.

kay chao.

2008-12-07T09:19:00.009+08:00

fuck the cramps!

cousins made yesterday official for us to get together with the help of dear uncles and aunties. and guess what we did, we went cycling. have been looking forward to this day coz maybe it will turn out great. and yes it did. but fuck the cramps im having thanks to this. imagine cycling from eastcoast park all the way to changi beach and back again to eastcoast.
reached changi, most of us were only half alive and veryvery hungry. we had nasi lemak and they made us play this one lame game just to enlighten us up. it did, but we got too excited and some people had to complaint about the noise we were making. like fuck them, if you want peace and quite, might as well sleep at home. biatch. before going back to eastcoast, its ike a must to give the 'girls' a visit. but when we reached changi village, no one was there. today business was good i assume? ahuh.
did i told you the distant between changi and eastcoast is very far and creepy? hell yea, it is. thank god, mr rockin was there to keep me company coz i cycled alone while the rest were far back and front. and mr rockin, the reason why the load would suddenly gets heavy is only because i build some leg muscle :D
i have full body massage waiting. i need my butt shaped. the long ride back was torturous, i swear.

kay, seems like i blog too much about the cycling part. lets make new post..
wait last, Eunos is the hopeless place for you to get a cab. cousins and i wasted an hour looking for one and we end up being fetched by uncle. great.

2008-12-05T10:52:00.004+08:00

someone farted.
oh and specially dedicated to fidut's friend, sorry that i was harsh but thank god you do have mirrors at home. tell me when they eventually break (:
and maybe, i should say the same to this other person. yes, soon.

2008-11-30T22:36:00.004+08:00

i want thank this one lovely idiot for making rhymes for me.

YOU ARE FUCKING SWEET
♥♥♥
and i will try not to lie (:

2008-11-30T21:47:00.004+08:00

so how long has it been?
months i guess so.
anyway, am here just to update on certain stuff.

i want to say this to you but im not sure if i should say this here and at the same time, i cant say this to you.
i have always treated you the same as the rest. okay maybe im closer to you. but maybe coz you're someone i could talk to. like the day i cried and you were there to comfort me, i really appreciate that and feel very thankful to have a good friend like you. and when i complain to you about the useless guys i accounted with and you listen, i was really glad that you gave me your opinion and made me look on the bright side. you never fail to be there and make me smile and i love you for that. but other than that, i never thought that we could be more than what you want us to be. i prefer the way we are now and i love the way it is. i hope you understand coz i really dont know how to explain this to you when you asked me all those questions. and i dont want this to ruin our fab friendship. when i said maybe i like someone else, it was just an excuse to make you give up. to have you to always be there cheering me up and being best of friends is much better then watever shit.
so please dont act all weird, coz i badly need to talk to you like we always do. you have to see me when we go out pon kan. and do not regret that you did confess coz atleast i know you really really really care for me.

and to the other one, i've known about that the whole time. you dont have to tell me that you kept it a secret when the rest of them actually know. sheesh. but atleast you're okay with it. im so glad.
the point is, im very very thankful to have the both of you in my life to make it very colourful.

news flash (by request)
i've just had a new friend, malek/zul, and he's friendly (:

2008-10-17T22:55:00.002+08:00

oh people!
bought new phone ytd (:
its a slide samsung LIVEloud phone. and its red! hot hot hot. and the thing is, i bought it with my own money la sey. yea yea, with my own hard earn money :D
it cost me only $155, after trading in with my old useless fone.
anw, watched house bunny today. with hammy.
and small eyes is so silent.
he's not good at planning things, proven.

2008-10-12T02:19:00.003+08:00

ytd raye was okay la.
there was 19 of us, instead of 30 people. which i was soooooooooooo relieve. skip the whole thing, i just wanted to tell you about this one lift situation.
we went to rashid's. he live at the 9th floor and so we obviously have to take the lift kan. there was already some people in the lift, so i got in. its not normal for the lift to get overload when im the last person to step inside. but ytd was so shocking for me. heh! first time sial, the lift was overload becoz of me.i am so sad. and i felt FAT.
now andin have every reason to not feel fat coz andin, seriously you are not f.a.t. please eh.

okay okay, im off.
aku maseh rindu small eyes ):

2008-10-10T01:57:00.004+08:00

its shocking to know that its only a week and two days of raya, when all my raya money have been spent on, even before it reaches 100 bucks. i think most of it was spent on hair. yeap, i got a very expensive hair. and toxicated too. hehs.

anw, im here to talk about someone.
x here's Nazarie. he's a fcking despo who i just got to know from a friend who gave my number to him. yea, sad. anw, he said that he's a national rugger. not gonna fall for that. and the point of blogging bout him is, we've only texted for less then a week when he suddenly starts questioning me bout what i think of him. since idk how he look like, i checked friendster. great help. told him he looks immature and kental. guess he couldnt accept that, so he said that eventhough he kental, atleast his relationship lasts longer. like who gave a fuck? since a day after that, i never texted him anymore. and the thing is, his texts just keeps coming. he was all like, "eh u mara ke?", "beh merajok?". like or goodness sake, dont you get it that im avoiding you? damn.
x and then there's Haziq, nazarie and my friend's friend. i justjust got to know him too. and there is so much thing i got to discover about nazarie from him. he aint no rugger neither does he play for national team, like hell no. and his longest relationship was only a freaking month. long sioool!
x then met liyana ytd. guess who was she texting with? NAZARIE. like fuck, i wont let that ass fool her, na-uh. and for some dumb reason, i got so SEXcited and laughed hard. and also warn liyana bout the despo she's contacting with.
x in between laughter she said, he wanted her photo but she oblige. then he said if he cannot get her photo, why not they take a photo together. HAHAHAHAHAHA! OH.MY.LORD.OF.THE.RINGS!

im craving for a person.
i miss you so much small eyes.

having last paper today! yea yea yea :D
and im suppose to be studying coz thats the reason why im still awake. heck, its FNN sia, who cares bout that shit.
and also, going jalan raya with almost 30 of them later after paper. tell me who would want to open their door? not mine obviously, duh. and if this doesnt work out, im gonna beep nasir and join them. yea, i tell ya now missy. i aint gonna be with ya'll if its a waste of ma time. chey! haha.
idk why, im talking like a black, but their accent are just so cool. freaking cool sia! hehs.
u aint messin with me boo. i am no fool of urs. i am gonna cut u and god knows what happens to u next.

2008-09-29T21:24:00.003+08:00

i am gonna miss this fellow idiots :
x Dahlia
x Issy
x Aisyah
x Zakaria
x Hakim
x Amir
x Hady
x Adzreen
x Matin
x Rahman

buka outside with them last friday and i had lots of great fun. ate at laupasat and then walked to raffles, hoping to watch the F1 race.
aisyah and i could have orgasm upon hearing the loud noise of the engine. haha, like reaaal.
eh, amir try to carry me but i think i too heavy coz in the end, hakim still survive to carry issy. its either im heavy or amir lembek. haha!

as for new hairdo, obviousy i dont wanna stupid westwoodians to know coz if not, i wouldnt be 'bunning' my hair. but andin made public announcement this morning by shouting to nabila, "eh, extension namie lawa sey!" grrrrr. tak perlu eh. but thanks for the praise.
and i cant believe hippo also did the same thing, extension. mak kau!

okayla, i want find more pictures of last friday from the others.
till then, bye.
and, SELAMAT HARI RAYA ! :D

2008-09-24T23:43:00.002+08:00

oh and anafisu is sleeping so soundly like a PIG on her new bed. i am so excited ofr her la, ape je namirah. hahahaha. maybe coz i'll be sleeping on that bed later. yea, guess so.
and becoz of fytch, i cant stop singing PCD's When I Grow Up. damn her. no, damn those videos. grr.

and i prefer having this fake hair extension coz i so do not want any ghost haunting me for their hair back. neither will you want that to happen to yourself kan. bodoh sak!
wah, today nvr lepak la sey. speaking of la sey, i saw khai in the train just now.
gerek pe, da sah lelaki tak berbuah. gigi je besar, bola kecot. fck you up down left right center uh. knnbccb.

i obviously havent been fasting regularly like any devoted muslims does. semoga dosa-dosa ku diampunkan. cey! tak tau malu, puase tak nak.. hahaha.

okay nak chao.
saya rindu kamu semua.
TIDAK!

how i very much miss (-.-).

2008-09-24T22:50:00.003+08:00

okay, a glimpse of how i look like with my new hairdo.
no la, not really a glimpse actually. hahaha :B

haha. yeap, thats all. wondering why i tied my hair? coz its thin.
i need to thicken the extension. and prolly doing so tmr. yessa (:

2008-09-23T18:42:00.002+08:00

oh im getting extension and i am sososososososososososo sexcited. like gerek kepe, finally namirah rambot panjang. yey yey! doing it this thursday, with fytch. and again, I AM SO SEXCITED. :D
why do people call fytch fytch anw?
dont they know it actually means freaking bitch. lol! kesian kakak sdare aku. sane sini orang panggil die freaking bitch. and that was why, i was the only person who could call her fytch just like she love calling me blonde.
stop calling her fytch. her name is anafisu :B

okay itu saje.
and EOY is like next week. guess who haven't flip the books? ME!
okay bye.

2008-09-11T15:00:00.000+08:00

MAJOR BREAKDOWN.
not gonna be here for a while.

2008-08-24T03:18:00.001+08:00

SAYA RINDU KHAI
banyak banyak banyak banyak banyak !

oh, had 'breakfast' with him and adek at alif. heh, no daddy (:
khai is sweet and aku benci die la sey.

2008-08-24T02:22:00.002+08:00

guess where i am now. okay clue, look at the timing of this post. haha.
yeap im at fytch's. like wow right. finally i have time for sleeping over after decades of not doing so. haiz.

anw,
whats the point of being together if you're afraid that i will end up ditching you. trust me, it would be the other way round. and that is why, i dont usually have high hopes for your kind of species. ive learnt from my past experience. cey!
and i want to let khai know that im not even near to him minahrep exs. and therefore, he dont have to worry about being busted or played. okay maybe he have to be careful but hey, ive turned over a new leaf (:
saya cinta/ai/love khai.
and i fucking hate khai also. hmph!

2008-08-15T12:50:00.001+08:00

so razak text me ytd
asking if i wanted all the letters back -.-
and since i cant be bothered with anything like this anymore, i told him he can throw them away. as if im not convincing enough, he asked if im sure. IM HELL SURE. so i told him i dont need them and there's no point giving it back to me. then he replied saying thank you for replying his text. freak.
i mean like, whats that suppose to mean? lemme interpret..
1. he wanted me to get the letters back
2. he wasnt sure if i would still talk to him
3. he prolly thinks that i imagine him as a fucking jerk
yup, should be (:

&& saya sayang khai manyak-manyak.
had cheese prata ytd with him and maybe that was the cause of my stomach discomfort. yea, maybe.
and wth, today is pay day! well it better be or else..

okay im off. bye people. and do tag.
im miserable without people tagging this pathetic blog.

2008-08-13T14:28:00.001+08:00

yeap, ytd photos (:

saye rindu khai banyak!

2008-08-13T13:56:00.002+08:00

im so long uncontacted with my cousins and i miss them all so much. i wonder what leads to the silence but i miss fytch most. been like decades since we bitch and spam. doing something bout this soon.

anyway, had DND ytd. and the only thing that excites me most was Zali's performance with his other bapok friends who as a whole named themselves as the Tiffany Girls. fucking gerek i tell u. and the big bapok, fuyoh! so revealing with all those fats hanging out of that tight outfit. gahahaha! sexayyye.

&& im so blessed with a lovely matrep.
080808 <333.

2008-08-06T14:09:00.001+08:00

okay get this straight.
s c r e w y o u !
what i meant is what you think i mean.
~~ACEMK~~
no more.

2008-07-29T13:54:00.001+08:00

i would like to ask everyone of you for your forgiveness.

im very sorry for whatever wrong i've done to you guys, terribly maaf.

2008-07-14T15:38:00.001+08:00

& i still havent do my fnn yet.
well not yet complete i mean.

2008-07-14T14:19:00.005+08:00

okay. like how long has it been huh? im sure you all miss me right. oh well. blame work (:

lets start with last week.
lastlast sunday, i had my typhoid. again. and it hurts! ):
and on that day itself, i had to work. and i carried like a tray full of bottles and cups. yea, i know im strong. HERCULES! is that how you spell it? hehehe.
anyway, since i had my typhoid late, manager banned me from working the whole of next week, which now, is last week.
but before i take my typhoid, i went to NDP preview on saturday. && i went there with zas. plus his cousins and sisters. wow. love it! (:

and now im bored. im suppose to do my fnn but yea, this blog thing is so addictive. haha, mcm paham.
oh wait, i havent finish with last week's updates.

so since i didnt work last week, theres nothing new. except i went to watch hancock with buddy and it was totally fun. had arcade games. buddy is so an arcade guy. everytime i go out with him, he sure will try to drag me go arcade. hur!
oh, i managed to work yesterday. thanks to janny, i took her shift and so i got $25 for this week. hehs, so much for being employed.
& i watched hellboy yesterday. with buddy, after work at westmall. haha. but before that guess where we went? ARCADE, duh. we played the fighting game and like ofcoz, this strong hercules won. haha, loser!
people.. meet khairi, aka buddy.

tmr is PAY DAY.
& also dahlia♥ birthday.
like yey, she's finally 16. hahahaha!
besok kite da boleh gi tengok nc16 nye movie, tapi janny tak le ikot.
kenape?
pasal die belom 16. hwahwahwahwa! okay im so bad.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAHLIA ! aku cinta kau banyak banyak. wooyey (:

hello zas (:
& saya rindu mr smalleyes banyak. prepaid die low, susah nak contact. haiz. oh he's online (:
ACEMK ♥

2008-06-25T14:46:00.002+08:00

speechless.
feel really guilty for avoiding you. i hope you understand.

anyway, work was good and lovely without azura. she spoils my work environment with that fuckface of her. heh, its god creation and i cant do anything to change it. haha! mcm paham.
& MSE is very lovely. i love the eyes! haha. ni kalau die bace habis uh, confirm kembang. hehe.

school was plain boredom and tiring. have been sleeping for almost every lesson and so i assume im slacking. oh shit, nooo! gonna do something bout it ~~sooner~~ or later.

can i end here? yes, i wanna end here. okay bye.

ACEMK

2008-06-18T16:54:00.003+08:00

oh i hate school projects. the research part and the teamwork sucks most.
school's opening soon. infact, its next week. and the projects have yet to be completed.
my group havent discussed anything, havent been contacting each other to meet and stuff. bagos la tu kan. grr! i though i want to the project ahead of them, atleast my group did something. but since i have this fucking headache, kirim salam sudah la kan.

i worked yesterday. yeap, first day. i know its stupid to start now that school's openeing soon but heck. im the one working rightt.
the place was okay. at first i thought the workers were all arrogant assholes. but in less then an hour, i have already interracted with everyone. gerek sekali!
so as im writing this, i think Janny have just finish working. haha kau keje nari! hahahaha. and when she's not gonna work tmr, im the one who's gonna tire my ass out. haiz. they fucking bad la, put our working days the same day, but different timing. except for yesterday and friday. tu pon im starting work later on friday.
im enjoying my work! dapat makan the delicious cake! haha. makan gaji bute je.. but not really la. haha.
so this is when im working. if you care.
Thursday 12-5
Friday 6-11
Saturday 5-11
Sunday 12-5
and that's it for the week. (:

yey, planning to do homework together with Zas and Haikal on friday, before work. insyallah jadi uh. pleasepleaseplease..

& GO TAG LA!

2008-06-15T04:37:00.002+08:00

and seriously. eventhough working at secret recipe will be a bliss, the thought of them saying they will call but they dont is so full of bullshit. i mean how can you give somebody a hopeful feeling and you end up ditching them which infact suckdick.
if they didnt say i was suppose to start work on monday, i woulddnt have give a damn if TCC sells alcohol or not. atleast maybe i could get that job. grr! but since they called janny -coz they cant reach me- i was glad to know that im working on tuesday 5 to 10. at vivo. yea, keching!

and lately, ive been flipping through the dictionary just for fun and laughter. yea riight. idk why, but everytime i got nothing to do, i will turn to the dictionary. its F.U.N to learn new words.
chaperone,encapsulate,fractious etc.

anyway, one of a history asked for a patch. so when i told him that im not into relationships right now, that was totally the end of our conversation. yessa! i mean, i wasnt not ready but its just that i dont want the same thing to hapen again. and whats more, he's a gluesniffer. who would want to get herself involve with a useless fucking chap like that. no future, no namirah. so yea, if you think you're QUALIFIED then worth trying your luck to woo me. ((:
nie bukan nak jual mahal eyhs.

& why no new tags?!

2008-06-15T01:58:00.005+08:00

HAPPY FAMILY DAY 2008

idk if there's 101 people, but this is my paternal family.

BIGUY. gah! adli

DHUHA. this year's champ. whateveeeerrr.

ZOHOR. wee~

ookay muke penyek. sorry sorry.

aunty from KL.

looney asses.

the game where the husbands gets to get dress-up by their lovely wives. heh

REMAJA all the way. lastlast years' champ :D

perform tak rele kepe?

bini phantom. prft!

beauty runs in our blood (:

mass dance anybody?

bapok sesat. ha! ayis kenet.

KELUARGA BAHGIA.

2008-06-15T01:51:00.004+08:00

had family day.
vanda hall, costa sand.
was dull at first but things started to get hyped later.
oh our performance was first. was very much alive then all the practices we had almost every week to prepare. and yes to those who thinks that im a busywoman, the meeting i had was mostly about this dance thingy.
i didnt thought that my old aunties and uncles could rap. coz they nag most of the time. so yea, maybe their nagging helped.
yaadaayaadaa. the little kids won the trophy. heck. kesian punye pasal la kan. grr!
also had a mass singing session. lots of tears shed. poor cousin cried ): almost everybody cried. i was moved too. hehs.
okay nothing much. ((:
look at latest post for the pictures okey. bye. i hope that this will encapsulate the whole event, plus the pictures. wooweeyahoo!

can you believe it! they rented the hall for $800. might as well rent a chalet or something. with that money, we could ave rented two chalets.
there were lots of malays there. plus mats! 'yapool' kirem salam. hahahahah! he's name was actually kamarul and i thought i heard yapool. okay, stupid.
and i also bumped into irhas. well, he's the one who notices me first. heh.

2008-06-06T16:55:00.002+08:00

at zuhrah's. having sonething like a movie marathon while lepaking here.
yeap!
supposedly to go out with addy, last minute planning.
but last minute plans dont always work out. especially with addy. PAITAO.

had social studies just now. normal dull but okay class.
i miss nizam. now he's my fucking bestest boy friend. hehs~

and i think..

2008-06-04T04:10:00.003+08:00

and i do think that i want a bf now.
but obviously not nizam. na-uh.
if i could.. i would like a matrep bf.
yea, why not.
not that its gonna kill right (?)
but, anything will do. IF only he's not like the past.
so yea.
if any kind soul could help (:

boo ! :P

2008-06-04T03:40:00.003+08:00

oh i miss you. i miss bloggie veryveryveryvery much. muahmuah! haha. sick.

so what have i been up to lately? well nothing much. just hanging out with the same fantastic bunch of lovely people. yes, i mean it. i treasure friendship okay.
that is why i decided to tell nizam the truth. so as not to lose his friendship as well as not to toy with his feelings as deep as possible. coz the more i hide the truth, the serious things gets.
and that is why i love them. coz they are always there for me. take janny for an example. i've known her for 4 years and i finally realize that maybe, she and i are fated to be gfs. hahs, i sound so lesbie. but hey, i would really like to thank her for listening to my cries the other night until 3 plus the next morning.
and that is also why i love crapping with them. okay does this links? anyway, yea, wo ai da men.

went shisha the other day with zuhrah, andrew, setie, mat and fidut. was fucking fun la kan, duh. mat was totally out of his mind to blanja us coz he was left with only less than a hundred in his bank and i bet you he cant live a week with the remaining sum after forking out for the bills. and fidut was really high that day i suppose. coz he was suddenly shaking violently, out of his mind. well he was more like vibrating instead of shaking coz he was supper happy and overdose (?) and the next morning i got a serious headache. i wonder if its because of shisha or because i was doing nothing at home. idk.

holiday should be pretty great. well atleast when im not always at home which always gives me this headaches which to me feels like migraine. although i dont really know how migraine feels like. but other then that, it should be pretty great. yeah.

oh, this is for my aunty who i assume is gonna read this. what happens to the job at your office you offered me? its a total big question mark now coz you seems to be not replying my texts about everything. whats with that?
should thank janny for dragging me to that secret recipe job thing coz if not, i would be seriously bugging you, asking about why im not working at your office now.

and currently, i have troubles sleeping without having any discomfort. i always wake up with neck pain and sometimes headache. i think it the invasion of the head killers. OMFG!, AHHHHH! okay, whatever. im bored.

you see, i thought i have a lot to blog about. but it just turns out that i forgot about most of the things that had just happened in my life. gosh, i lack of memory space.

i got second in class. like hell yea! if irritating zul wasnt first, i would have took his positions. dammit. grr.
mommy managed to get all three phones back and plus the mp3- which when i got back home, my brother was asking for it back. burok siku! hmph.

and do read up on Manja. theres an article in the which have my cute face in the picture. plus my whole other cousin's. so.. do read. nono, you must read. im demanding you to read. GO READ!

that should be just it. bye dears.
and this different colour paragraphs is to make it easier for you to read (:

disclaiming. (is there such word?)

2008-05-20T15:11:00.002+08:00

joy's cute dear friend is only treated as my eye-candy (:

sad to say.

random (?)

2008-05-20T14:13:00.003+08:00

today is oh so bored day.
currently at school's library to update and catch up with the things that needs my catching up.

i cant wait for holiday season. workWORKwork at bibik's office. okay i wonder why nadiah's bf laughed at the bibik word. strange..
anyway. yes! 600 here i come. i swear i will work hard and get the pay like i dream. hehs whatever.

okay im bored.

survey-ness

2008-05-18T23:34:00.004+08:00

Name 20 person whom you can think of right now. Dont read the questions till you've named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this . Not in Specific order.

1. nizam
2. fytch
3. nadrah
4. granny
5. aidil
6. nadiah
7. addy
8. janny
9. matt
10. mint
11. daniel (i want the pictures!)
12. joy
13. faruq
14. dahlia
15. mark
16. shahley
17. razak
18. fatin
19. zuhrah
20. andrew

`````````````````````````````````
How did you meet no. 14?

-DAHLIA- four years back, i cant recall.

What would you do if you didnt meet no. 1?

-NIZAM- it doesnt really matter i guess. ?

What if No. 9 and No. 20 dated?

-MATT&ANDREW- then where would they put janny and zuhrah?

Will No. 6 and No. 17 date?

-NADIAH&RAZAK- they wouldnt dare. grr.

Describe No. 3

-NADRAH- she's my wild bitch cousin & i love her.

Is No. 8 attractive?

-JANNY- short and sweet (:

Describe No. 7.

-ADDY- an attached lao gong of mine.

No. 12 family members?

-JOY- err. ask yourself.

What will you do if No. 18 confesses to you that he likes you?

-FATIN- opps. its a she.

What language does No. 15 speak?

-MARK- alien i guess. haha. english, chinese and a little bit of malay.

Who is No. 9 going out with?

-MATT- janny!

How old is No. 16?

-SHAHLEY- 17 i suppose.

When is th last time you spoke to No. 13?

-FARUQ- 10000000000000 centuries ago. heez.

Who is No. 2 favourite band/singer?

-FYTCH- err. not sure.

You ever date No. 4?

-GRANNY- believe me, yes. heh.

Would you ever date No. 1?

-NIZAM- considering actually.

Is No. 19 single?

-ZUHRAH- sorry, no. why?

What is No. 10 last name?

-MINT- kamarudin. if im not wrong.

Where does No. 6 live?

-NADIAH- near me. we are inseparable. hehs.

What is your favourite thing about No. 5?

-AIDIL- he's my cousin and he's weird (:

=============================================================

and im back to bored mode.

*dozes off*

2008-05-18T23:08:00.002+08:00

i went to his house. yup just the both of us within the four walls. i was glad that nothing bad happened. i feel terribly guilty when he hugged. i kept thinking of you.

oh went sentosa yesterday. lovely i tell you.
i met them late, as usual. well cant blame me actually. blame fytch. she last minute ask me to wait for her so that we can go boonlay together since she wanted meet alza. guess how long they waited? a fucking hour. hehehe. i love them for waiting 'patiently' for me. MUACCKZ! haha.
i tell you, sentosa was packed with people. and the guys simply love it coz there were babes with big boobs suntanning near us. suke uh! suke uh! bastard. hahaha
then took lots of pictures. not with me sia, with daniel. must grab the pic from him then can show you guys.
basically, i want to tell you that i went sentosa with my beautiful bunch of lovely friends and we had fun. yea!
okay bye.

random

2008-05-11T18:30:00.001+08:00

i am missing somebody right now

but im not sure who.

to whoever it may concern,

namirah misses you very much.

i am still a happy kid

2008-05-11T17:46:00.002+08:00

& yessa !
number 8 managed to get my msn and we chat just now early morning. idk who gave him th info but i would like to thank joy for having a cute friend. hahaha (:
he nudged me at 3 plus in the morning. he woke up coz he was hungry. pft. then chat until 5. i dint get to say bye ): coz someone alr switched off the modem and im too afraid to go out coz the wind was like crazy. eventually it rained. i thought a ghost was looking for me siol. gah!

anyway, im at nadiah's.
yes. she's behind me, singing some chinese song. strange.
she didnt managed to pass her physic. and that makes me feel even better. coz never in my whole science-educated life did i ever pass physic. wooweeyaabedaabeduu !

oh, and since today is mother's day, i texted mommy just after 12 midnight, wishing her a happy mother's day. and since i am such a sweet little girl, i also said that she's the best mommy that i could ever wish for and i love her.
awww.. aint i sweet? kuucikuuci.

andand, i would like to thank min for borrowing me his phone. oh so nice. hahs. wait,wait. jangan jealous. hahaha. im sick and tired of people disturbing me with all those puerile teases. grow up la dey ! haiz.

and btw, number 8's name is faruq (:
he lives at sembawang. jaoh sial !
oh and falik is still cute :D

oh stop deforestation.

2008-05-11T01:11:00.003+08:00

i still find n boring at times
seriously boring. idk why, but he just do

i and nizam are nothing but mere friends. special friends. but, in a way, he's a giant wall that is obstructing me from the other guys. ey public! aku single. hahaha.

okay, back to publicity talk.
people, please stop burning the forest. and to you idiots, please stop wasting papers. paper wastage is equal to tree wastage. more trees must be burnt just to meet your puerile demands. ey, fuck off!
okay da. im done bullshitting. and min/setie is laughing at my every craps. thanks uh sey.

i hafta put down the phone with addy coz battery was low. i felt bad, very bad. i miss my lao gong. (its a long story. whoever that wishes to know the story behind this, please approach me.)

madness !

2008-05-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

i want vent my anger about friday's incident.

1. i woke up at 0645 and my sister was already out and my younger siblings were getting ready for school. i shouted and sweared (hoping it doesnt wake my parents) at them as i stomped to the toilet. how can they not wake me up. like hello! friday is and forever will be a schooling day. MOE wont change timetables.

2. since i woke up late, i flag a cab. if i had known, i should have took the train. the fucking ride costs me 13 bucks. not only that, the stupid cabbie didnt know where corporation is. sial ah! i even had to tell him to change lanes. believe me if he's an 'experienced' cab driver. fucking stupid la. he dove and brake.. drove and brake. im just glad that my bones are intact and are still in my body.
oh and i wanted to pay 11 bucks instead. i told him, "uncle, i only have 11 dollars uh.." *smiles* "HUH? 13 DOLLARS LEH!" and i have to take out, unwillingly, another 2 bucks. yup, he was so shocked. well the ride obviously doesnt worth the 13 bucks. dammit!

3. as usual, punishment for late coming. had to run 5 rounds and briskwalk godknows how many times around the quadrangle. fuck mr goh. not just that. lets put the next one as number 4.

4. and so number 4, bag check. i am soooooo doom. and i was infact doomed. limchowlee had my mp3 and handphone confiscated. yes, 3 phones confiscated. THREE ! i so hate her. i wondered what wrong i ever did towards her.
damn i cant swear her coz some teachers might be blog-hopping.

but,
my results had me smiling for the rest of the day.
i passed the unexpected papers. exclude math please. duh.
combined science : 64% B4
combined humanities : 69% B3
malay paper 1 and 2 : 69% B3
mathematics : 47% E8
how cool is that, for the first time, my results actually brightens up my day. seriously, i was shocked. more like aghast! got my english improved (: haha.
but right. im fucking not happy with the another 1% that can make a huge difference in my results. another percent, and i will get : B3 for science, A2 for humans, and A2 for malay. grrr!

oh and i want say sorry to ko yongliang. whatever i said that day in the hall, please dont take it seriously. i was just saying. you know how my mouth can get out of control. (:
aku rindu addy.
talked to him like shit siak. long time never crap with him. gosh i miss pal.
wo xiang wo de lao gong. hhahahahahahaaa!

* updated on 10 may.

number 8 please

2008-05-04T21:33:00.002+08:00

fish, i want number 8! not 7. wtfh. grr!
okay whatever, i still got nizam<3

i hate to admit it here that a friend of mine likes me and it gives me a chill down my fking spine. idk why but it just did. like puhlease la eh, whole world knows about my relationship with N. even you! and you are still in cloud 9 wishing that one day you will walk beside me. na-uh mister, not gonna happen. you will always see another person but obviously not you. bu shi ni. ni ming bai mah? go flag an aeroplane to get you down to earth thank you very much. cause your ke-syiok-sendiri-an is driving me crazy.
okay i've blabbered enough about this to zurah, matt and setie. and i think im tired of it.
prepaid is low! and im dying inside. i should have managed my bill if i know this is gonna happen. god, please turn back time. i got lots of things to fixed. turn back time! turn back time!

and people, save the forest. i just revised geography actually. so yea, save the trees! it helps to replenish oxygen and prevent global warming tao. and you guys are actually complaining about the hot weather. like eh, kau nye fault pe. hahaha!

i find N boring at times.

three more papers and im stress free!
and i cant wait for family day, 14th june taotaotao ((:

2008-04-28T20:48:00.002+08:00

oh and i memorise one whole chunk of passage from this one page for social studies.
here goes:

'a state have to establish a stable government so that programmes and policies can be carried out. with a stable government, another challenge face is meeting the people's needs. if these needs are not met, people may become discontented and to an extreme cases, go against the state.
a state must also be able to maintain sovereignty. this can be achieved through deterrance and diplomacy. by having a strong defence, the state can establish security. having good relations with other states helps build friendship and creates opportunity for economic and military co-operation. this interaction may help the state to gain recognition and support from the other country for their sovereignty.
building a nation is another challenge. as there are many different ethnic groups in most state, national identity must be build to bring about social cohesion. with cohesion, there may be unity among people and peace in the country.'

like woa. i still can remember. not bad sey namirah.
thank you thank you. and thank nizam for accompanying me through the night. gua cinta sama lu la beb!<3(:

my words

2008-04-28T20:41:00.002+08:00

people, please stop with your assumptions. do not put words into my mouth and do not assume the wrong things. whoever that i may be talking about might not be the person you think he/she is. thanks uh. coz now, i fucking feel awkward.

mid year is here and so is stress. idk why but they always come in pair. yup, inseperable couple. haha rotrot. aku lapar can? & wo miss dia. lalalalalalalalala N~

save the trees, save the earth, save your ass. everything links.

save the earth please.

2008-04-24T00:26:00.006+08:00

lets save the earth by stopping deforestation. not only are you bringing harm to the earth, you are also ending your own life. fucking idiots, wake up! im too young to die now okay. so please stop harming the innocent earth.

oh oh. i hate fytch/upin/new roomie. eh orang, dont think you're fairer then me tao. in my heart, im still glowing brightly (: gah! macam paham.
so fytch was just bitching about how people can see her blush now. whatever la eh! grr. i fucking hate camp plus sports day. thanks uh for making me the chow da that i am now. FUCK IT!

i watched porn in the library today. hahaha! like i never done it before. nyeahs. with fidut and janny. mint and matt didnt watch though. ade abang tu semangat blaja pe. then the other one da ade tembel. gahgahgah. kesian setie aku.
i wanted to eat ramly burger. but they didnt teman me so heck, i went home lor. sad ):

today is nenek 72 birthday! and upin bought her a cake. aww.. upin is 'so' sweet. and nenek was touched. double awwness.
i love N.

i never had a dream come true
till the day that i found you
eventhough i pretend that i've moved on,
you'll always be my baby.
i never find a word to say
you're the one i think about each day
and no matter what that leads me to
a part of me will always be with you.

damn, its so hard to forget and let you go.

2008-04-22T23:36:00.005+08:00

ye uh, dengar dengar aku nak ruin happiness kau pe. dengar dengar, aku yang macam sial dkat sini pe. dengar dengar kau boleh suke hati kau suroh orang go fuck yourself ape. kalau kau fiker aku takde hatiperot macam kau, kau salah uh eh. whatever sak kalau kau fiker aku nak avoid kau ni semue. ey, aku tak heran uh. aku boleh buat bodoh ngan ni semue and act like as if nothing happen.
so aku rase kau faham ape yang aku type kan, jadi aku takya susah susah translate. grr im so mad. kay let me relax..
this is gonna be the last chance if you've finally realise. after this, tu kau punye pasal.
& thanks for regarding me as your friend, truly.
oh & dahlia, we're good right. i mean just because of this our friendship gets affected. okay, maybe i over react but who wouldnt be sey. and you didnt have to say sorry that day you know.

idk what else to blog about actually.
okay okay. dear admirer (im not even sure if its true), thanks for the little sacrifices you've done and the company. i really adore you but you should know that my heart is all out for N. maybe you'll appear again like you just did in my next love life? you really are a good friend and i obviously dont wanna lose our friendship, not now. so next love life? i'll try to reserve a spot for you (:

dear god, i love nizam.

3 o'clock ghost

2008-04-20T00:59:00.007+08:00

~~oh mark, if you are reading this, i fucking hate you.~~
you dont ask me to go fuck myself and said sorry the next day. even if you were to beg for forgiveness, nothing will change. dont wish that i will forgive and forget as im not the kind that forget people's shits towards me. you suck and forever will remain that way.

asyraff says that a sheep goes mehmeh. not mekmek uh? lol.
anw, today was fine. minus the earlier events that occured which really piss my dick off. i so enjoy their company. i miss the times we use to have. im really thankful for whatever that has happened.

im a better person now.

dear sweet admirer, i love your presence but it feels awkward. to label you as a playboy was outerspace but that was what ive noticed so far. although you didnt say any obvious hints, i know how you feel. firasat aku bagos dan tak pernah tipu.

let me love N coz i think he's the next most adorable thing ever. wait. no wishful thinking. okay but still ily. if you've been updating, you should know who N is.

my whole body is aching. yes, since yesterday. someone please massage me. im so pathetic now that i cant walk properly with aching thighs and butt. oh when i told them this, they thought i did something with upin. upin! dorang got wild imagination la kan. psychos.

may you forget everything to move on
even if throwing away my letters are into consideration
coz moving on wont make any sense if you still have them somewhere
may the love blossom between you and her
dont hold back for this bitch
coz i aint your bitch anymore

okay people, with lots of lust..

2008-04-19T01:49:00.000+08:00

i love it & i love you

2008-04-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

if this is fuck to you,
dont read.

had sports day and it sucks. well partly because i disappoint the team by slowing down near the end although they assure me that it wasnt my fault. i still think it was my fault. im very sorry guys. another part was also because the race was crap. this year's sports day seems to be the worst one. yet.
the most suckiest part was, me almost falling down while sprinting. yea, i sprinted. its been 3 years since i last run on tracks i guess. idk. but anyway, we didnt won anything. but heck, we didnt came in last like a loser right? we won as a team. yessa!

after sports day, i and janny joined the rest to play tennis. its fucking fun i tell you. once you manage to play properly, the racket is gonna be stuck in your hands for another few minutes. ask markanthony himself. he wouldnt stop until dahlia threatened him. hehs.
went jalanjalan after that. im so fucking lazy to hive you the details so, lets skip. skip!
did some bowling at CDANS. janny got a strike la sey. i guess practicing some bowling games on your tv helps. haha! oh, fidut lost. gahahaha! before that, otw to bowling, he fell and got his sister's pants a hole at the knee. mati kau!

yaadaa-yaadaa-yaadaa. im overstretched. thank you redbull classic, i love the way you turn me on. haha (:

some people must learn how to keep things to themselves and let go of your past. coz whatever that you are keeping inside and venting out are affecting people's life. if you want people to understand, you must first of all, understand yourself.

your unspoken sorrows could not be heard if you care so much about other's unspoken comments. so just mind your own shit.

oh, this is fuck. so i hope you are not even reading this.

sensual seduction

2008-04-13T06:18:00.002+08:00

& im still awake.
woot woot woot, i am an owl. woot woot.